Dreams : Interpretation for “Spark of Life”
Dreams often represent the emotional state of the dreamer. In this dream, Spark of Life”, I am experiencing very positive emotions over having made progress in my recovery from PTSD and the mental breakdown that occurred several years before. The following interpretation depicts various aspects of this journey.
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Psychoanalytic Dream Interpretation – Spirit Reunites with Mind & Body
In the beginning of the dream, I am getting off a plane and I buy new suit. This represents the period after my breakdown, I came back to LA to begin a new life– hence the new suit. I have foreign currency –the dream meaning of the foreign currency I believe is that my old career will not get me where I want to go any longer and my new career of interpreting dreams is not profitable at this point. So I’m not quite making it financially, therefore I have to walk through the gritty part of the city or bad neighborhood because I cannot pay for a cab or bus. I am a little baffled, currently, as to where to head with my business plans and I am not sure in which direction I should head in the dream.
Encountering the homeless people, perhaps I have a fear of ending up like this.
Asking for Help? A Novel Concept
I keep on asking people where Eastern Avenue is. And, I ask many times. I think this is a metaphor for what I am currently doing in life – I go to various classes, such as WordPress and I ask questions. I have started asking questions on the support sites of software vendors and some people I know – I was extremely hesitant to ask questions in the past. There was a fear of asking questions – possibly having something to do with the negative response from an alcoholic father when I ask for help – often it was met with rage. Therefore, it was safer to remain ignorant and not ask questions.
Now, I am finding that the support representatives of companies, like WordPress , Google, Hostgator and Hootsuite, make every effort they can to help you learn about their products.
A Precarious Journey – Finding Yourself
The gaps in the barge system might represent the precarious position that a major change or shift in your life can bring about –you can fail (fall in the water) or get stuck out there in the middle. Finding yourself is not an easy path there are many obstacles.
The dream meaning for the large gaps between the barges could be the risks one must take in discovering your real self. I won’t jump when I come to the first gap. When I started to recover from my breakdown–everybody thought I should go out and get another sales job – that seemed to be the logical course of action. But, I knew I could no longer do this– every fiber in my body said; “No, go another way”. I guess, I knew I would fail if I went back into sales– my heart was no longer into that. Therefore, falling into the water would have been a foregone conclusion.
In the dream, I go back to find another path back home. This path is, also, blocked by another gap. My guess is at the second gap is the difficulty in finding another road to being successful in the sense that I would be doing something to survive that I felt connected with– something where I would be satisfied with my output– intrinsic satisfaction where I would be proud of what I do and I am driven or self-motivated. (An ideal world.)
A Breakthrough Part 1 – A Little Guidance
Also, I just get back to the other side of the river without knowing how or why. If someone asked me how I was able to get this website together – there was not a well thought out plan – I just kept trying different things and enough of them worked that eventually, I accomplished my goal.
It was just about three years ago that my therapist suggested I write a book on dreams, then I thought a website might be a better way to distribute the information and one thing led to another. – The old ‘1,000-mile journey’ begins with the first step, but there is no way to explain exactly how you got to the end – you just end up there after trying a lot of things. Therefore, in the dream, I overcome some of the obstacles suddenly without reason; like getting off of the barge or out of the basement.
A Breakthrough Part II – A Lot of Initiative
The first guy to jump could be the “A type” personality who can go on ‘no matter what’ to achieve success– like myself when I sold computers. He could also be the part of me that has succeeded, partially, because I have managed to put this website together despite many obstacles. He defies gravity by pulling himself up where many others would have fallen into the water from this position. Two years ago I did not know what a blog was– now I have this website, Facebook page, a Twitter account, and I am learning how to use HootSuite.
Some of my friends (60 and above) do not even have a Facebook account. So, in a way I defy gravity – plus the topic of my website has never been tried before ( To the best of my knowledge.) – sticking my own dreams out there with all the character flaws, and trauma, much of which I hate to admit– I find it embarrassing. However, I think it will help others to see that this kind of trauma happens to many of us. It is often thought that we are the only ones that have these problems; therefore, we have to hide them. The reality of it is that many of us deal with these or similar problems.
Anger Over Not Having Been Given Directions in Life
I am furious when I finally get off the barge– it was as if they, society, is structured to prevent people from finding an alternative path – society does not seem to care if you feel satisfied with your work or not. I felt that going back into sales would only lead back to depression. It takes a lot of time to discover where your true spirit lies, people would be much more productive– enthusiastic about their work if people would’ve been steered to find their true spirit from the beginning. (Again, in an Ideal World.) This was something my father should have done originally, but never took any time nor showed any interest to do this with my brother or myself.
Tale of Two Cities
I am simultaneously into cities– Los Angeles and Washington DC. My new life where I feel I’m finally connecting to my spirit is back in LA– but I also have to reconnect with my past – where my spirit originally existed– but that early spirit was crushed early on by the trauma of my youth in the Washington DC area. It is my opinion that one cannot just block out the past. The past must be reconciled consciously with who you are in the present in order to reconnect with your personal spirit. Blocking the past would be like covering a serious wound with a bandage so you cannot see the wound and then just ignoring it. An infection will probably grow underneath the bandage – the same thing happens with wounds to the mind and spirit.
The Division or Barriers
There is nothing in society that facilitates finding an alternative path– it seems to work against you by building ‘dividing walls’.
The division of the city could be the difficulty in reconnecting the past where the spirit was crushed – to the point where the Spirit is coming back to life.
The division could also be the subconscious where the Diabolic, or shadow side, wants to hold on to the anger and desire for revenge against those who have harmed me versus the spirit that knows that to truly grow I have to let go of those past wounds and forgive. (And that’s a big divide) That is hard to do, but now I can see the more I let go of the negative desires, and the more in touch I get with my true self, the more I grow and come closer to finding my way.
This divide could, also, represent the difficulty in trying to unify the processes of the brain’s left and right hemispheres -where the left represents the pragmatic, highly structured real world versus the right hemisphere’s emotional, spirit driven, ideal or intuitive world.
The Bully, The Bullied, and the Hero
The night before this dream I had seen a clip of a video on Facebook where a guy defends a woman on a bus or subway. The hero is just sitting across from the woman when this other guy, the assailant, comes up and starts to verbally accost the woman. The assailant has his back turned to the guy or hero that is sitting across from the woman. Apparently, the guy who was sitting thought the woman needed assistance and reached over to the assailant’s waist and just pulled his pants down. Then, the hero stood up to confront the assailant who turns to confront the hero. But, the assailant must’ve realized he was at an extreme disadvantage with this pants pulled down around his ankles, plus he was smaller than the hero, so the guy just walks away with his pants down around his ankles in humiliation. It was pretty funny to watch. So, I assume this is where the karate guy came into the dream to defend me. This scene in the dream probably represents the dual sides of myself that are either poised to attack people who offend me – while simultaneously poised to defend those being bullied. Plus, I am, also, the one being bullied.
This is a good example of how a current event, that doesn’t appear to be meaningful in the context of your conscious life, gets woven into a dream by your subconscious at night when it processes what appears to be extraneous information. My unconscious mind made the connection of the pattern in my life where I can be all three characters – the bully, the bullied and the hero – when I watched the video and stored it for processing that night. Generally, I am only the bully in my fantasies.
Dealing with Separation
The distance I sense with my mother is most likely myself still trying to process her death; I cannot reach her in the basement. And, I moved back to California, so I feel the distance with my brother in Maryland.
Both my mother and brother are stuck in a corner of the basement–my mother was and my brother is cut off from their emotional lives to a large degree. My mother always had everything neat and clean and the same with my brother–everything always looked good, well organized to the outside world. But emotionally they were shut down and I was too. However, I acted out–occasionally I could not keep everything penned in –I would use drugs and alcohol as a release and after I became sober it was sugar and sweets – milkshakes and donuts. And, let’s not forget about the anger and rage. Therapy, alcoholics anonymous and the dream work have helped me find my way back, connecting my spirit with my mind and body.
Cleaning Up the Past
My dad’s workroom was down in the basement– it was not a bright cheery spot– the opposite of how the basement appeared in the dream–after his death my mother revived some of her life – she was able to recover a portion of her spirit. Also, making the basement sparkle perhaps is cleaning up the past and letting go; forgiving my father for his faults; like the alcoholism and rage.
It Feels Like Spring for the Mind and Spirit
The dream meaning with the confusion between spring and autumn–I sensed it was spring because part of me is coming back to life after an emotional and spiritual life frozen in a multi-decade winter– my spirit is beginning to reconnect with my mind and body and I am doing creative things like building this website, interpreting dreams and writing a book.
But, It Is Really Autumn for the Body
Then, I realize it is really autumn, and a chill hits me, I am 62 and growing older, beginning the final quarter so to speak of my life or at least I’ve chewed my way through a good portion of the third-quarter – autumn. But, there are these particles floating in the air that are a great source of energy. I am excited about life again– I stay up late at night frequently, like I did in college– 2:00 am is often bedtime. I have so many things I want to do – I can’t get everything done. And, the motivation is coming from internal sources, not from external pressure. So, I am in two seasons simultaneously hence the confusion, just like I am in two cities.
Interpretation of Main Point of Dream – The Spirit or Spark of Life”
The Spirit is Coming to Life Again – The Spark of Life Reawakens
The particles of energy floating in the air are the energy and power that can be released by reconnecting the ‘spirit’ to the mind and body. I am receiving the benefits of this ‘energy’ from the work I have done reconnecting the spirit, represented by the sun, with the ‘mind and body’ represented by the plant. The growth of the plant represents the growth in my life and spirit. My being so sure of myself in the dream comes from having experienced this process in life. The miniature bolt of lightning is the “spark of life” that appears to have returned to my life after a hiatus of 50 some years. I am 62 currently, and I often feel I have more energy, purpose, and direction now than at any other time in my life – as if I had just been marking time all those years just to survive.
It takes a lot of effort to get to this point, especially if you are a trauma survivor– having to cross rivers and going through the middle a somewhat dangerous city. But as I began this quest, the energy came to give me the strength to meet these obstacles. There are setbacks like getting stuck on barges, but then something will happen as a result of your effort and suddenly you will find yourself over the obstacle.
The river could be the emotions that must be dealt with and the dangerous city could be my own mind having to deal with a darker aspect of my shadow/diabolic side. The river and city represent the risks involved when you decide to discover yourself by taking a difficult direction in life. Normally, in my dreams water represents emotions. When trying to change your path in life, my experience was that I definitely had to deal with many of my emotions, which has been a difficult task for me – especially the rage and anger issues.
“Here, Have a Cookie” or Donut
Of course, I have to have a donut worked into my dreams, probably because my mother was in the dream and she would always solve a crisis with desserts and treats. I actually have been quite good on my anti-sugar campaign, but now finding that I am eating things that have sugar in them that I did not associate with sugar. In reality, I did not eat a doughnut, just in the dream. Perhaps, Freud had a point about ‘Wish Fulfillment’.
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