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Alcoholism “Drunk In Church” – Severe Depression and Family Alcoholism, Addiction and Denial

Alcoholism - "Drunk in Church" This dream is about being in a state of severe depression where a history of alcoholism, addiction and severe depression in my own behavior and that of my family of origin had an impact on my ability to function.

World Annihilation vs. Self Acceptance: Fear – Rage – Suicide – Rebirth – Transformation

I let 5 days go by before I entered into computer and attempted to interpret – this is definitely something I don’t want to think about or drag out into the open...Aliens attack and start wiping out the population indiscriminately. They are killing people all around me– lot of fear - everyone is in full flight mode – there is no way to resist them – they were going at us with the same voracity which most humans kill cockroaches or ants when they infest or overrun the kitchen. I keep running

Psychopathic Boss – The (Fixed) Race – Spiritually Corrupt Ex-Employer

I was laying string down on the ground with little orange tags on them. The string was coming from a garage and being laid on a freshly paved road which went up a hill. There was supposed to be some type of event – but I wasn’t sure how it was to be conducted. There were orange traffic cones along the route. Then a team of people show up...

Marijuana Addiction vs. The World of Precision

This dream pertains to my life getting out of control through the use of drugs and alcohol. Dream: I am in this very high precision type of hi-tech world – no errors are made. I am riding on something like a “Sedgwick” but instead of rolling it flies. I am constructing some complex structure – cables fire from guns...

Relationship – Born Again Pagan – Connecting with Humanity Again

Relationship - I am at the farm of my mother’s first cousin. Her and her husband always had reunions there, and I always felt welcome and comfortable there – which was unusual for me– normally I felt like I did not fit in. There was a pond in the dream with a shallow end...

Dream of Grief – Death of a Marriage – “The Beautiful Fish”

As I try to pick it up – it disintegrates - slipping right through my fingers – it became as the water itself and just ran through, so I ended up destroying it in the process of trying to rescue it. I was very disappointed that I was not able to save it and felt a very deep sense of guilt and grief.

June 19th, 2014|Grief or Great Loss, Powerlessness|2 Comments

PTSD Dissociation – Feeling Disconnected Trying Again on Another Planet

PTSD Dissociation - Connecting Again on Another Planet PTSD Dissociation dream is about the feeling of not being truly connected to the people around me. The feeling of not really fitting-in with other people. I became somewhat adapt of faking it, but in reality there was no true connection for the most part. This dream is about [...]

Emotional Impasse – Subconscious – Impasse Caused by Anger and Fear – Defense Mechanisms

Crusader Army Finds a Fortress Emotional Impasse – dream reflects a recurrent theme in many of my dreams caused by having difficulty of letting go of anger stemming from and extremely bad work environment with a narcissistic employer. – 5/30/13 Crusaders in Precarious Environment I am leading a rather large crusading army – we have long spears or pikes. Mostly cavalry and we are in a desert type environment as the sun is setting. The army is moving out in the open and I have a feeling of impending doom– I sense that there is a large enemy force in the area that is closing in on us. […]

Alcoholic Thinking About Drinking? Who Will Know?

I am with my first wife (seven years after divorce) and we are floating in an inner tube type life raft – and we are floating up a river against the current which goes up a mountain. Everything is bright and peaceful – beautiful day, sun is shining, perfect temperature. My wife is smiling just like the picture from our wedding day. Then the skies darken...